I don't know what the deal was today but I was hard-core missing my little Malachy all day long! I almost left the conference to go and be with him because I missed him so much! However, he was in SUPER good hands with Crystal, who left my house super clean-thanks!! I was really glad Crystal babysat because ever since Malachy was born I have wanted Crystal to get to know him. It's important to me that she know Malachy because I love her kids so much and have valued having them in my life and I want her to know andfeel the same way about Malachy! So it was a blessing to me that she got to spend some time with him. Now I just need to find a day to spend with little Madi Patti!
The conference was of course amazing. The thing that struck me the most though was a little video that was a part of our "The God who hates injustice" service a few months ago. In the video they showed starving children in africa and it broke my heart. I have never been a very compassionate person, I was always afraid people would find out just how cold I really am. I don't know if it's from being surrounded by such extremely compassionate and empathetic people like Kim and Crystal...or if it's just one of those gifts/burdens God gives you when you become a mother, but ever since Malachy was born I have had a strong desire to go to Africa and hold the babies. Every time I see them on TV I weep for them and their mothers! My heart physically aches! I just want to hold them, I want to tell the Moms that are to sick or/and poor to take care of them that I will help, that there is hope, that people do care, that God is still there with them and that their babies are loved. I wish I wasn't such a coward or I would be there now. I hope sometime with in the next 2 years I can go! That's my goal. Until then I'm going to have to do the compassion international thing and support 2 kids because I can no longer bare to do nothing. Every time I start to think about it, I get sooo sad that I have to force it out of my head so I can function...it's nuts!
On a lighter note...I sent Noah a b-day present today. It wasn't much but we paid $13 in shipping hoping it would get there in time....you never know with the army! I hope things aren't too hard for him now. I have gotten better about praying and have been praying for him lots! His birthday is June 17th so please pray that he has a good birthday and isn't too lonely. And also please pray for Lauren who is without her husband all month, I know it's hard on her!
Well I'm going to get to bed so I can get up early and have fun time with Key before work .
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I'm glad to hear that you spent that amt. on Noah; it reassures me that my gift won't be a duplicate.
I don't know what the deal was today but I was hard-core missing my little Malachy all day long! I almost left the conference to go and be with him because I missed him so much!
I honestly do not know how you do it Steph. I could never do it again. I had to work for the first 7 months of Emily's life. It was so hard. I only made 6.25 an hour and Scott made 6.50 an hour. As soon as he got that big raise to a whopping 10.00 an hour, I quit (I remember that I made a lot of people mad too)! Even though it meant we would be bringing home less than our money combined money before. It was the best decision I ever made. It was really hard though living so far from my family (it was cheaper to live in Genoa) and only having one car, never having any money, we didn't even have a phone for over 6 months. It was all worth it though.
I totally understand your aching heart. I missed my Emily so much. It is so hard to be away from our children.
=oD
PS The last 2 deleted comments were mine. I just kept seeing some big mistakes. There probably still are a lot but oh well.
PSS I know in the past some comments had gotten misread. This is writen very sincerely.
I'm so proud of your for wanting to take care of suffering babies. I have totally seen God at work in your life over the last couple of years. You have matured so much in such a short amount of time...I have no doubt that God will use you in amazing ways.
I'm sure Steph misses Malachy's hyper little tail-stub, too, Lauren.
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