shopping

So, I have been feeling a little down lately about many things...One of them being my appearance. I don't like to talk about this because I know that there are people who REALLY struggle with low self esteem when it comes to their "image" and for the most part I'm not one of them. So I never want to over dramitize my feelings on the issue or belittle someone who struggles with this more then I do.

However it is growing problem. I have consistently gained weight since my gullbladder surgery. Being a mom of a young child cuts money for hair and makeup as well as time for the basic things like a shower! I work with the cutest people ever which makes me feel worse. I don't want people to think I don't care about myself or to think that I'm oblivious to the fact that I go to work everyday looking like I just rolled out of bed and put on whatever I could find off the floor...I'm painfully aware of the way I look...I just don't have the energy to change it!

In an effort to feel better Mark said I could get some clothes from Old Navy (we are broke but I have an Old Navy credit card that I leave at home in a filing cabinet because when it comes to credit cards I can not be trusted!) If you know Mark you know that this is a big deal for him to let me buy clothes on a credit card! I'm very thankful. So Mom and Kim took me there today and we all had high hopes. Oh my goodness...I think I was in denial about home much weight I had actually gained! At first I tried on some fitted shirts that were long enough to cover my tummy but they were to snug and only highlighted the tummy. So I tried on a bunch of clothes that were lose and flowy in an effort to hide the huge tummy. Unfortunately they just made me look bigger...like 9 months pregnant bigger! It was disappointing to say the least. I ended up finding some plain t-shirts and capris that were more comfy then cute but at least I will have clothes to wear this summer that fit. I hope this experience will motivate me to work out and get things under control..for my health as much as my appearance.

So anyways that is my story. In my head it was more interesting and entertaining then it turned out. Too bad I don't have any pictures of me in the moo-moos now that was entertaining! =)

P.S. it was fun going shopping with Mom and Kim and I do like the stuff I ended up with. Anyways...it's more practical for me to wear comfy clothes when I'm chasing after Malachy before and after work!