Saturday, January 20, 2007

I must be super depressed...

because I started looking for my old journals this evenning. I have no idea why I look for my old journals when I'm depressed. I must be narcissistic because, in all honesty, my old journals are super depressing. They are from H. S. and the few years immediately following that.

Those were really hard years. I learned so much in that time but I learned it the hard way. I can't believe the person I used to be 10 years ago. Time puts most things in perspective . It gives me hope to know that in 10 years from now I will look back on these days and be in awe of how much I have grown beyond my current stupidity and heartache! Oh...that makes since. Maybe that is why I look for my journals when I'm depressed.

Regardless, I didn't find them but I did find my old scrapbooks.


Andy said...

Poor Steffo,

Kim got the fibroid myalgia gene from Mom and you got the depression gene from me.

I don't think I suffer from depression - I'm just a carrier, but didn't Dean tell you kids that all my sisters, and maybe my brothers, too, have taken medications for depression? Maybe you should think of it as a medical problem and see if prozac helps, or maybe that quit smoking prescription. You have good insurance - the cost should be insignificant. Maybe in a year you'd be saying, "I should have done that a long time ago."

I never intend to get too personal on a blog site, but I'd like to see you a little chirpier before you try to deal with Malachy's little sister.

lauren said...

Chin up, Steph!

Crystal said...

I'm sorry you're feeling depressed super friend! I love you and I hope that you know that you can vent with me as much as you want or need if you need to vent that is!! I love you and thanks for the my bestest pal!