because I started looking for my old journals this evenning. I have no idea why I look for my old journals when I'm depressed. I must be narcissistic because, in all honesty, my old journals are super depressing. They are from H. S. and the few years immediately following that.
Those were really hard years. I learned so much in that time but I learned it the hard way. I can't believe the person I used to be 10 years ago. Time puts most things in perspective . It gives me hope to know that in 10 years from now I will look back on these days and be in awe of how much I have grown beyond my current stupidity and heartache! Oh...that makes since. Maybe that is why I look for my journals when I'm depressed.
Regardless, I didn't find them but I did find my old scrapbooks.