I don't know what the deal was today but I was hard-core missing my little Malachy all day long! I almost left the conference to go and be with him because I missed him so much! However, he was in SUPER good hands with Crystal, who left my house super clean-thanks!! I was really glad Crystal babysat because ever since Malachy was born I have wanted Crystal to get to know him. It's important to me that she know Malachy because I love her kids so much and have valued having them in my life and I want her to know andfeel the same way about Malachy! So it was a blessing to me that she got to spend some time with him. Now I just need to find a day to spend with little Madi Patti!
The conference was of course amazing. The thing that struck me the most though was a little video that was a part of our "The God who hates injustice" service a few months ago. In the video they showed starving children in africa and it broke my heart. I have never been a very compassionate person, I was always afraid people would find out just how cold I really am. I don't know if it's from being surrounded by such extremely compassionate and empathetic people like Kim and Crystal...or if it's just one of those gifts/burdens God gives you when you become a mother, but ever since Malachy was born I have had a strong desire to go to Africa and hold the babies. Every time I see them on TV I weep for them and their mothers! My heart physically aches! I just want to hold them, I want to tell the Moms that are to sick or/and poor to take care of them that I will help, that there is hope, that people do care, that God is still there with them and that their babies are loved. I wish I wasn't such a coward or I would be there now. I hope sometime with in the next 2 years I can go! That's my goal. Until then I'm going to have to do the compassion international thing and support 2 kids because I can no longer bare to do nothing. Every time I start to think about it, I get sooo sad that I have to force it out of my head so I can function...it's nuts!
On a lighter note...I sent Noah a b-day present today. It wasn't much but we paid $13 in shipping hoping it would get there in time....you never know with the army! I hope things aren't too hard for him now. I have gotten better about praying and have been praying for him lots! His birthday is June 17th so please pray that he has a good birthday and isn't too lonely. And also please pray for Lauren who is without her husband all month, I know it's hard on her!
Well I'm going to get to bed so I can get up early and have fun time with Key before work .